Mountains and molehills

Tonight I felt the urge to blog tho I doubt if anyone will read it as most know I'm not blogging anymore...life is getting tougher to handle. Illnesses for which there are no medicines I can take safely...money shortage - that's one most everyone I know can relate to. I feel very alone and am facing a mountain (probably more like a molehill but my perspective is off) of odds and ends in my life that I see no solutions for. I hate being alive, I dread each day, there is no joy, no refuge to go to. I have managed to mess up a lot of things in my life and...well...there is no and. Enough.