Setttle for...

It's a shame that my sister has settled for less than what she deserves. She deserves a man who respects her, loves her to no end, and is HONEST with her. Unfortunately she settled for someone who stole from her and broke her heart and will do so again. I'm sorry she has so little faith in herself as a person to not settle. She's wonderfully talented...I'm envious of her talent but without faith and trust in herself she is willing to settle for dirt. I love my sister and know that she resents the hell out of me for what she considers a rotten childhood...sorry sis, I didn't make our parents who they were...I didn't choose them...I just tried to help you with a roof over your head and someone to come home to. My childhood wasn't so great either but you didn't give a damn about me did you...don't now either. Your loss, sweetie! I am struggling but will survive as I always have...by myself...you never reached out to me when I was hurting and won't now...well, I am done with people who do not care about me. Nance, I promise you thatt Mike will leave you high and dry again when he gets "pressured" and this time he may take all of your money as well as your trust and love. I will always have an open door for you because I love you and it's always unconditional.

Tohu Wabahu

No it's not a fraternity war cry...it's Hebrew for formless void, kaos. It relates to God making the earth from a formless void and putting it into the kaos of space. I think the "air" between the ears of of politicians is exactly that...full of void and from that they have created kaos. I kind of like the phrase myself...I work with someone who has Tohu Wabahu between her ears and therefore creates kaos around her. Anyway, enough said for today.

Today's economy or lack of...

Businesses closing, staffs cuts in many places...times are difficult in many places today. As we enter our workplace in the mornings many of us are wondering if we will have a job tomorrow. I know I have had to take a serious look at my life and discern what is a need and what is a want. I heard someone ask...how did we ever get to this horrible place? I'm no economist but it boils down to greed...we always want more money, more things. This country and the businesses that help keep it going are greedy as well and the politicians that run this country should be ashamed of themselves. Many of them don't NEED (please note the word) the complete second salary that they get...many of them have wonderful incomes from their own businesses and investments (yes, they have been hit too but none of them are hurting) - they WANT or rather feel they are owed this extra money. The only thing we owe them is a swift kick in the behind for the mess they (I include all parties in this word) have made. Our president should lead the way by taking a major pay cut...most of what he and his family need is provided by us. Our former presidents should take a good look in the mirror and at their finances and give back to the country. We need to take a good look at our lives and stop living beyond our means. It's time to take responsibility for our mess and join together and clean it up!

Steps...

Not sure how to title this posting. Today another step has been taken towards the separation between my husband and I. Over the next two weeks several "steps" will take place towards that...there are a lot of steps in separating lives that have been together for 39 years. I am sad...we aren't fighting... there aren't any bad feelings...we've just grown apart but one doesn't just walk away from that kind of time together without being affected. The final step will be when he leaves on April 17th...it's still two months away but coming fast.