As the Old Year Ends

2008 has been quite a year. School was good...got a B in Math!!!! Moved into a condo in the "old folks" area....love the condo....hate the "neighborhood". Oh well. So much is happening in this world and I am very blessed in many ways. The girls at work complain (as we all do) about this and that but when I get aggravated I pause and then say a silent thank you for the fact that I have a job...so many are out of work. Life isn't fair...never was and the times are reflecting that. We are greedy and think we have to have so much to live...it's surprising what one can do without when you have to...been there...done that! A roof over the head is a necessity but it doesn't have to be a three bedroom, two bath, pool, hot tub, designer kitchen. Kids will survive sharing a room...my sisters and I did and we didn't turn out too bad...well, Nancy is the exception...she is a bit weird (only kidding Nance)! Anyway....2009 is going to be great!

Eve of Christmas Eve

It’s the eve of Christmas Eve and this year has been a tough one…in fact the past two or three years have been tough. I wear a mantle of sadness that I cannot shake. My 39 year marriage has fallen apart and in April my husband is moving to Indiana. We part friendly but it leaves an emptiness in my heart and soul. I am not feeling sorry for myself…I wear the mantle of sadness not depression. I am blessed in many ways and I know it. Each day I remind myself of my blessings. I want to do so much; heal the hurts, bring a smile to someone’s face, capture the rare picture of delight in someone’s eyes…there is so much pain and sadness in the world and making it right begins with one…that one should be me but I don’t know where to start. I tend to gather the cloak of solitude around me when I'm hurting and then I am so comfortable in it's protection I don't want to shed it.

Mountains and molehills

Tonight I felt the urge to blog tho I doubt if anyone will read it as most know I'm not blogging anymore...life is getting tougher to handle. Illnesses for which there are no medicines I can take safely...money shortage - that's one most everyone I know can relate to. I feel very alone and am facing a mountain (probably more like a molehill but my perspective is off) of odds and ends in my life that I see no solutions for. I hate being alive, I dread each day, there is no joy, no refuge to go to. I have managed to mess up a lot of things in my life and...well...there is no and. Enough.

No More

Dear Friends and Family,
I have made a decision not to post any more blogs. If you want to know what is going on in my life call me.